Just my feeling's about something ?

This Post has nothing to do with Qing or China , but it has to do with the United States . As you can see from the Photo's , the first was in 2007 , while in Germany . I went with my Mom and my Uncle to one of the Home games of my Hometown Club ( 1. FC Kaiserslautern )which I played against many times as a youth ( 8 to 14 ) . Since I belonged to a rival Club cross town . The second photo is of myself and two of my good buddy's , that I won the Los Angeles City Major League with in 1977 and 1978 . We used to practise against the LA Sky Hawk's then , the first Pro team of Soccer in LA . To tell you the Truth , they have not beaten us ones on the practise Field of San Fernando Valley College . Great times for sure .

So one can see Soccer was in my Blood and still is , which should be of no surprise coming from Germany . I started to kick balls , right after I started to walk , I think ?

Anyhow , loving Soccer ( Football ) , what makes me upset today , has been bothering me for many year's . Is the US selfishness , that only " Their " sport's are of any importance here . All this year's Federation Cup ( in south Africa ) has been shown on ESPN . Great ... I thought , but now when it comes to the Final and mind you the US Team is in it against Brasil of all Teams . But do they show it on a Sunday to boot ? NO and a fat NO again . It is more important to show Baseball on five Channels , golf on two , Tennis what's left . I was so upset , I wanted to just call my Satellite Company and tell them what to do with the Dish . But , I think it's not their fault , it's the Media . Just as the Government does , is to brainwash us all to believe this and that and watch this and that , because that is what the People want to see . I am also sick and tired of having 250 Channel's and with nothing to see worth watching . It's goten to the point every Show is half show and half Commercial's . No wonder I don't hardly watch anything on the Tube anymore . When there could be something on ,that one want's to see , somebody in the TV lala land thinks different . On top of all this they have the nerve to charge each one of us a small fortune for it too . I been here in America for 40 year's , and slowly I am loosing more and more respect for it . It's not MY doing , it's killing itself at a very fast pace and all in the name of Uncle " DOLLAR " .

China is looking better and better for me , when it's time to quit working , I'm out of here as fast as a Jet can carry me and my Sweetheart , back to her home , Shanghai . Which we both Love .

In my Eyes , America was ones a really wonderful Country . I can only shake my Head ... does anybody have the answer ? The one that said " All wonderful thing's must end someday " I think , he / she meant by that ALL thing's .

Looking forward to the Weekend ... maybe ?

Oh yes , the weekend is finally here ! So one would think , plenty of chance to just kick back on my side Patio with the Albesia Tree blooming and giving me shade or relax inside the Spa in the backyard next to all the Flower's showing off their beauty . Sit down with a good Book or write another Poem to my Sweetheart , with a Glass of a good Red Wine ( no Cigar ) and enjoy what are weekend's are made for .

But " NO " , for me Weekend's are must do Yardwork . There is much to do all around the House , one has to work for it , to be looking nice to be inviting to want to sit down and relax . But does that leave time to actually get to sit ? Of course not . Because when your done , your to tired to even relax , because you have to eat now . So it goes week by week , especially now that Summer is close and everything needs more watering and there is plenty that need's to be watered by Hand only ( all the potted Plant's ) . Sometimes you wonder , what would it be like if all was Concrete and fake Plant's and Rocks ? No ... who would want that ?

I know now , having your own House and being by yourself , is not a easy thing to be faced with . Makes one think back to the Apartment Life , never to have Yardwork to do . I know ones Qing is here with me , I can become the average Couch-potato , just watch Football and eat junkfood's and have three meals on the Couch till it's time to go to Bed .

Woo ... woo ... wait a minute ! That was not me saying those thing's now , this was the naughty Bee writing . Just go away for a second and this Guy , want's to get me in trouble .

Well ... Qing already know's what to do with the naughty Bee , nothing less than a good Spanking will be dished out on the spot .

So back to the relaxing weekend , as I was done with most of the things I wanted to do , it was time to clean up the Garage a LITTLE ( not a lot ) . Believe it or not , in the Cabinet's inside the Garage , there were many .. many Food items from the time my late Wife was still around . Rice , dried Chili's , Beans , Cakemix along with other stuff , that I would not dare to make or Eat . Had to get rid of them ones and for all . That makes room for the new and it looks alot better and neater this way . There also was alot of Art and Craft stuff , which I have no use for , so it also when the way of the Trash container . I can't say , I wasn't prepared for this Day , because tomorrow , I do get to relax and be over at my Neighbor's House and getting together with many of our Friend's and having a good time and some of his famous Cooking .

But to think , all this work to keep it all clean and neat looking inside and out , is for my Sweetheart , my Lao Po , when she finally get's here , to make this a HOME again . It is sooo worth the trouble , because *** I Love Her *** .

Another step closer !

After writing Qing a two page letter yesterday and talking about her being nervous and stressed , with the move and the interview coming up soon . I totally understand her feeling's , it would make me uneasy too . Moving half way around the World , to a different Country , different language and different Culture all together , could make anybody a little nervous if you ask me .

As I talked to my Aunt from Albuquerque today at work , I had to tell her , why my Answering Machine is off as of late . Because , I only have one Phone line , for the House , the Computer and the Fax Machine . So to have the Fax ready to receive anything coming in from the Visa Center ( just in case ) I need to have the Answering Machine off . After an hour talking to my Aunt , I got home and turned on my Computer , which I usually do after taking a Shower and Eating , to see if anything new came in . As I look through my E-Mail's , there was this Notice from the Visa Center , that everything got send to Guangzhou now . This is of course great news for Qing and myself , as it seems now it will be only weeks for the actual date for the Interview . I will send Qing a Copy of my Blog , since she still can not get logged on from China . In case , they don't send her a Copy of it .

I can see the light at the end of the Tunnel , but I don't want to celebrate too early , not till we get the " YES " from the Interviewer .

The BEE is loosening up it's Wing's , soon it will take flight and my Flower is waiting for my arrival .

Do our Lifes change other People's Lifes ?

I of course must answer this with a big YES .

This is a Photo of my late Wife ( Nancy ) , and being married to this Lady , for almost 30 year's . I have sure learned a lot , not only how to treat a Lady but also how to be a better Man all together . She was actually the first Woman that I ever been Intimate with . So in other word's , whatever I know about Women , I have learned pretty much from Her . I was 24 when we first met and we both were driving a blue '69 VW Beetle at the time . So me being a German Car Technician , I say She had it made ... repair-wise , keeping her car in shape . We also had many things in common , like Qing and Me now . The only thing not in common , was She had seven Children already , when we met . Goes to show how deep Love can go , as it did not matter one bid . Being a great Wife all those year's , she has changed many Life's for the better , not to mention mine .

As I talked about this many times , the Lord and Her send me on the Journey to find my Wife " Qing " after she had passed away . Before she died , she was very worried about me and how I would be able to move on without her , she took care of so many thing around the House and outside the House . Which of course I see now , what all she had been doing , needing to do all myself now .

Feeling her Love , even after she was gone ( Physically ) , I knew she wanted me to be taken care off . This is why , I was send to .. off all places .. halfway around the world again , just as the first time meeting her , from all the way from Germany . So , two Wife's and twice I had to go 8000 miles to find them . Yeah ... it's something , isn't it ?

Anyhow , so now having me changed , now as it happens , she is doing it again . How , you want to know ?

Yesterday at work , I ran into a Lady Customer , which loves to talk your Ear off . But after finding out she has lost her Husband of 40 some year's and he did not leave Her anything to live on , including there House , which the Children took over and moved good ole Mom , into a corner of the House , a little bigger than a Closet . Is that the thanks she get's from being a Wife and Mother for all those year's ? So her car needing a few repair's and which are not cheap ( over $ 1000 ) . As she is scrambling to make a Living , I had not yet taken all my late Wife's clothes to the Goodwill yet . This is where it get's interesting . This Lady is exactly the same size ( 5'2" and about 180 lb. ) as Nancy was in her last year's . Makes me wonder , has the Lord ... make me wait and hold on to those Clothes , because somebody is going to come along who need's them badly ? Of the same size ? Feeling sorry for this Lady , I of course offered to bring all the clothes (ten large bag's ) and that she can go through all of them and see what she likes and the rest I will take to Goodwill . See ... it's me in a way changing this Lady's Life and make it a little more bearable , but the one that really changes her Life is my Nancy , even only being here in Spirit . That not only makes the Lady feel special , but me also . All thanks to my lovely and thoughtful late Wife , that taught me to be that way too .

Now being married to an even more lovely and wonderful Lady , I will surely put my teaching's to work and Love and Respect " Qing " much .. much more .

Love does make the World go around , as hatred only put's on the brakes and does no good at all . So , I actually can not wait till Monday and give this Lady the Clothes to choose from .

God , has shown me the way to Love and I will pass it on .

Up-rooting a Flower ! What are the Consequence's ?

Are there Consequence's to worry about ?

This Photo , of a beautiful white Lily plant , that sit's by my front Entrance of my House . It is of course my favorite Flower of them all , as they grow long stems and very large and gorgeous Blossom's , that are just reaching for the Sunlight , like mirror's . These Flower's grow from Bulb's , which means ... in the Winter , when there is less Sunlight and pretty Cold where I live . Which is in the High Desert , about 70 miles north from Downtown Los Angeles . They will take a rest from looking alway's the best and most beautiful in Spring , Summer and Fall . That of course does not mean , that I love this Flower any less ! It will alway's be part of my Home now and for as long as I live . I have this Flower now for almost two year's , come November .

How time fly's , especially from the last time I had a very close look at it and realized how much I was in Love with this Flower . That makes me think , what if I would up-root this beautiful Flower from it's Home and all the Bulb's that make up this Family in this special area , where it's gotten so used to ? I definitely don't want my lovely Flower become sad and start to wilt on me . That has me worried so much , nowaday's . Of course I will Love this Flower wherever it might be put or placed , but will the Flower love me back the same after it has been moved , from it's favorite spot ?

But as time has it , this Flower must be moved and taken away from all the Bulb's it cherished for all it's Life . That does make me somewhat , of a bad Person to do this to a Flower , when all it wants to do is Love you and show all the beauty that it can .

So it is going to be up to me , to love it even more than ever before and see if I can keep it looking at it's best and show me how happy it is , by giving me , those big white Bossom's to look at , and tell me by that ... I'm in Love with you and very happy to be in my new Place !!!

After all is calm and a mild breeze touches my Face , I realize ... that this Flower , is actually my *** LAO PO ... QING ***

Deep down in my Heart , I must of have know it all along ! That there are no Consequence's at all ... only Love , that would make any BEE happy as can bee !

A Letter , how it turns an ordinary day ....

into a beautiful and sunny day . With Love all around you , while you read it eagerly word by word . Knowing , where it came from and who send it my way . As I look back , I must of received hundred's of Letter's from my Lao Po ( Qing ) , over time . But seeing that no two are alike and the last one is more wonderful than the one before it , that is of course due to the Love growing and so does the meaning of each Letter , that follow's the previous one .

So coming to the point , of writing about Letter's that I receive , is because today was one of those day's . Where I received Qing's Love ... for the Poem I had send her on Saturday . She might be eight thousand miles away , I can feel the warmth of her Heart , in her writing .

With this feeling in my Heart , I must call my Lao Po and share this special moment , by also hearing her Voice of an Angel , that she has . This of course confirms the Love that she has for me even more so . How can I not be the happiest Man at this instance and beyond , for many years to come .

Keeping ones Spouse happy and feeling loved , even being apart , is not as hard as one might think !!

One more Poem , while missing my Qing .

As today was a slow day at Home , with not much to do , but to wait for the Stanley Cup Final ( Game 5 ) to come on the Television . Thinking of nobody but my sweet Wife and what Hajo has started to do now , excite his Vicky with Poem's of his own . So why not get down and write my 13th Poem today . As this took about 20 minutes to scribble on a notepad and 45 minutes to write it on special paper and scan it , to be send to my Lao Po , alway's waiting for new letter's or photo's from her Lao Gong .



So I like to share this with all my Follower's here :



Waiting .... Missing .... Waiting !


A lover who is alone
even Married to a Spouse
but far away and at Home
to only be without Her smiles
missing the one He chose
apart by many ... many miles .


Speaking of my sweet Lao Po
how the Heart is so able
feeling and loving Her certain glow
missing all since came the depart
looking for something to ring
making it easier to cope
with time and the sorrow
waiting to hear my Lady sing .


Sharing Her beautiful Voice
it is so special , but even though
seeing Her grace and love flow
to think of that awesome choice
made by Me a long time ago
to find this Woman on opposite World's
falling in Love and having to wait
to make the Love grow
and finally be with your Mate .

This has been a strange Day !

I don't know , if anyone has ever gone through such Day's like I had this morning ?
Last night , as I alway's do , I check into our China Love Forum . To see what's new , as the day went along and I tried to call my lovely Wife before I went to Bed . So about 23:00 thursday night I go to Bed , but did not do something , that I usually never forget to do . Set the Alarmclock for 05:30 . Anyway , I slepped really good and did not wake up ones till around 06:00 , but instead of getting up , I went back to sleep . I woke up again , because had to go to the Bathroom , at 07:30 . Here is what's strange , I really thought that it was Saturday and proceeded to go back to Bed for another hour or so . As I lay there trying to go back to sleep , it came over me like a cold shower , it's only Friday . I jumped out of Bed , with both feet at the same time , I think ? I do usually open Shop at 07:30 when my Uncle is not there to open , as was the case all week . Living 45 minutes from Work , did not help much either . Customer's had make appointment's for o7:45 already and here I am , just starting to get out of my House . Well , I got there at 08:25 , not too bad , and the one Customer waiting was not upset at all . Had to wait for his ride anyway , so no harm done on my part . Hehehe .

So coming home , I was thinking of writing into my Blog , when I came across Hajo's Blog . It almost brought me to tear's . Who say's Men don't cry , is a fool .
Ready his Blog , which was mostly appreciating what I have done to inspire him , including to write his first Poem to his Wife to be .

It really show's , if one put's in Love and his Heart , not only to find himself a wonderful Wife , but also make Friends along the way ? To bring you Love back that you send out , because you care about other's and their Happiness as much as your Own . Is there a better feeling than that ? I don't think so , especially from People you have never even met in your Life .

So , I herein want to thank Hajo and many other's from our little Group , for being here when I need help and appreciating when I'm helping .

Zhen de hao xie-xie ni , to all of my Friend's .... and of course my Wife " QING " , that made this all possible . *** THANK YOU MY LAO PO ***