Well , I'm back here again , instead with my Book .

Yes , I'm back with my Blog ones more . As I was ready to continue on my Book ; which is now 20 pages in and to the point , where a Phone call changed our Life's for ever . The call , that nobody ever wants to listen to . That your Spouse has Cancer , not only that , but an " 8 " on a scale of " 10 " is not a good sign at all . Along with the message , you might have about six months to Live .
I knew , that writing this Book would bring me back to those horrific moment's in my Life . But , I need to tell how brave my late Wife was and how all this eventually changed my Life for the better ... finding my Qing .

So to continue my story , I needed to check all the Medical records that I still have . It is a Book in itself , at least two inches thick . I could look at all these Bills that ( thanks God ) Medicare and Blue Cross payed for ( some 1/4 million Dollars for sure ) and get all shocked up . What it really shows me ... is how BRAVE my Nancy was , going through all what she went through , without really complaining too much about anything . Just going from one Appointment to the next and to the next .

Here she always said , she was a lousy Patient . I totally disagree with her there . Because I know , that I would have made a bad Patient , no way that I would have been that brave going through all this happening on almost daily bases . I owe her this much , just to tell everybody reading my Story ( if it ever get's Published ) what a great and brave Woman she really was . To the point , where I believe the Lord and her send me on this Journey to find my now wife Qing . All out of Love for me , that she wanted me to be taken care off . That was one of her biggest worries , before she passed away . She did not tell me that , but to her favorite Nurse ... the one she knew she could trust ( Virgina ) that work's for Vitas Hospice .

I must get over this part and I will make it , but it will not be easy . But at least my Book will have a happy ending , that will be a lot more enjoyable to write about .
I do have to make it through Chapter two also ...
" The last six months with my Nancy "